why i create.

Why do I create. 

That’s not the right question is it. 

Well, maybe it is.

Writing is home, safety and spontaneity all wrapped into one moment where I type away at my keyboard

Photography is exploration, dancing with the light and eyes of whatever my soul wants to capture in that moment

And it seems that making videos, of any kind, are that exact same thing. 

So why do I create. 

It’s simple. 

I love it. 

The feeling, oh the feeling is insane

Its as if the world slows down and nothing else matters except whatever flows into my brain and my soul in that very second

As I type this I think. 

Wow. 

How in the world have I gotten to this place

Where I just want to create

All the time

Writing little poems on my phone

Or writing novels to put myself to sleep in my head

Knowing exactly what I want to capture the next day, or the next month, and waiting for something even better to jump out at me. 

It’s absolutely ludicrous that I want my future to be something full of creation.

But if we really think about it

Arent we all predisposed to create in some fashion?

It’s why we take pictures

Why we write letters

And why we constantly try to understand each other

Because we have been put here

By a creator

And this creator

In all his majesty

built beings that’s only goal is to create

Well. in the simplest way possible I guess.

So for me, why do I create? 

Why do I write

Why do I capture moments with photos

The answer is simple. 

Because I was created, so I might as well, as it makes me jump for joy and light the room up in the attic of my mind awake, create a bit more too. 

But. 

Why do I create, is not the same question, as why do I want people to know I create

And that answer, perhaps even 6 months ago for me was quite different than it is now. 

I used to create to fill this void in my chest, in my heart that was aching for some sense of validation

But now I see it differently

Maybe there is some hope for validation, but that’s a prideful endeavor I’m hoping to stray away from

Perhaps now. In these moments where I type and work all day to piece moments together

I’ve realized I create now because I want people to understand something

That there is beauty in this world unlike any other world

And I’m not talking about earth and other universe’s. 

It’s quite simply, do you see the world through the lens of a creator. Of the creator. 

And if that’s the case, then this worlds beauty is so unreal to you that oftentimes I struggle to understand how it is not fake. 

But then I remember something quite important. 

Just. Create. 

And as I create perhaps then will I find something a bit different. I’ll find something